its something that consumes me

Its something that i need, in my life.I have been craving it my whole life..i feel as though its the only thing thats harder to reach than anything .
I just dont want to feel uneasy and on edge i want to feel free and live passionately , i just feel like i cant while my family are eating me up bit by bit, its like they want a piece of my sanity that im hoding close to me i just want to feel ok with myself and life ans im kind of worried for later on when im university they are still like this, what am i going to do? i just wish i kne, i spent most of my time helping my family, sometimes i want that little pice of respect back.

sometimes i wish i had a happy childhood, i would like to think that i would more positive now , having a room like this as a child


and my name would have been  and my parents are together and happy, and i had a brother 1 year younger than me and we were like best friends .and i just ran into the wild and lived to tell tales :)


and thanwe lived in vancover next to the lakes , and i would go off riding into the wind, and i went to highschool and than i worked at this nice store or something .

and i had a bedroom like this